Angry dream and alot Leo midheaven thoughts 🤔

First im in a car.. Here are (bit unclear) my sister and my mother.. Im complaining about this family dynamic.. Why nobody ever have my back.. Why nobody is ever really on my side.. Always Im alone and Im so angry about that and Im telling it very angry.. 

I feel so frustrated and angry.. Im leaving..

Now im with my ex bf.. We are also on the way.. Not so clear but maybe with a car.. He is constantly looking after other women and tells me all the time he wouldnt.. I feel very hurt, not only by him being so greedy but also bcs he lies to me and even I know so obviously that he lies.. He still lies.. I feel again.. Very frustrated, hurt and angry..

It's already night, we stop at a house.. There is a guy in the door.. It feels abit like we could rent a room there.. 

My ex says he has to go in.. I can see his phone is vibrating and as soon as he think I cant see it anymore, he is grabbing he pulls his phone out..

I know it's a woman.. Otherwise he wouldnt hide it.. 

Im so very very angry that he always lies to me..

Now all mobile phones are blinking.. It's huge alarm, everyone gets it.. Something very dangerous is coming up it seems..

I still feel so super intensely angry.. And gradualy wake up..

I was wondering.. I dont really understand this angry dreams.. The only thing could be that transit venus tSquares my Mars in opposition to transit uranus and that transiting sun is building up a tSquare to my sun / Saturn AC /DC 🤔

The moon was oppositing my neptune and squared transit Black moon lilith..

The moon was interestingly also squaring my solar Mars 💡

Well the topic of frustration about the mistreatment I go thru already my whole life.. Even since before I even was born.. Comes very up recently.. Specially since yesterday 🤔 I get very conscious about alot.. It makes sense, since uranus transits thru my 7th house, tSquares my MC / IC axis exactly..

If u have from the very beginning the feeling that nobody has ur back.. It's like u go out in this world like a piece of meat infront of lions 🤷🏼‍♀️ and a Leo midheaven (right at the lions heart) might want u to learn how to build real inner strength, glow and love deep from ur heart.. A deep rooted, solid authentic self love that is not dependent on others validation.. Since it comes from my very own memory and reconnection to my true self.. A fullfilled heart, is fullfilled.. A weak leo needs so much validation from the outside because it lost it's connection to their true authentic self..

The outside world is always a reflection of the inside world..

So im not there yet but I will be there bcs im very conscious about it..

In fact I understand that ppl are on their own path.. Im conscious about the fact that it isnt my job to judge.. (my south node is in sag 😁)

My job is to leave ppl that dont appreciate me.. It's my job to treat myself as if I was my own precious child..

I think such transitions needing their time.. A super solid house is not build over night.. 

There are coming always challenges to make u prove how stable ur process is yet.. That's life.. And it's also life, that we cannot have always the strength tp go the stairs up and up without falling sometimes abit back down.. It's just important to learn and always remember to go back on track.. 

For some ppl this is a life goal..