Less thinking, more feeling

Im in a hotel room.. There is a massive red Couch.. Looks bit like leather.. But pure Red.. Looks huge and very stable..

Infront is a big TV.. TV is on.. 

In the TV is an Interview with Bill Kaulitz from Tokyo Hotel.. He looks his current age but is styled like in the beginning of his career.. 

He seems to complain about the buisness.. 

Im about to go away, since I dont like TV.. But then he starts getting more dramatic and I decide to watch just this Interview.. So I make myself comfortable on the Couch and watch.. 

He starts crieng.. He tells about the coldness of the ppl in the showbiz World.. The superficiality and how cold it is behind the scenes.. How much he got misstreated and such things..

There is now a woman watching it too.. She dont show any compassion and is even laughing.. Im abit surprised and then she went away thowards a Garage and says that he thinks to much.. People think to much instead of feeling their feelings, she says.. It's all about love! The only important thing is love! To be in ur heart! Not thinking! Feeling! 


And I felt so caught 😵 I thought wow! That's so true! I think so much but I have to feel more instead of thinking.. 


Then i suddenly remembered my ex bf.. I saw all those situations when I felt forced to things which normaly shouldn't be forced but done with love.. I thought, wow like this was all done to me to pull me away from feelings.. Away from my heart.. To be not able anymore to enjoy those beautyfull romantic things we can share with a loved one.. 

How beauyfull to share those things bcs u feel like it! Because u really like each other! How could I let someone take this away from me.. 

In this night, jupiter was exactly on my moon.. 

The moon were exactly joining and moved on into an exact square to my black moon lilith 

Saturn and nessus are conjunct my black moon lilith as well.. 


Mercury is at my midheaven, trining my venus, my neptune and sextile my pluto.. 


The sun were on my nessus dejanira conjunction, trining my south node and trining the transiting north node.. 

Mars is on my north node, trining transiting Black moon lilith 


Transit Black moon lilith is square my neptune, eros conjunction.. 



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